moving on from my love

I wish I could have seen our future
But I guess I caused so much burden
Time will soon move on and memories of you will dissapear
And I'll learn to smile again
I won't fear standing alone on that empty road
Maybe I'll find someone to love a new
This past year I can only see it in the past
Now I'm passing by the fast lane
Never looking back, but the memories will slowly fade
And my eyes dry from the tears I've cried
For so long I will try to move on
Everything I've lost, is now to regain
And I know it was our last good-bye

call center life

call center life???
allot of people think that we have an easy job...well im tellin you now....WE DONT!!!!so shut the fuck up if your freakin tellin everybody that we have a very lame job...but i know your just envy..hahahahwell anyways honestly,i didnt know that ill stay longer with this company that im employed in right now.coz i really dont know anythingabout call center jobs,whether its an outbound or inbound i dont even know the difference between outbound and inbound?lolz...all i know is i badly needed a jobcoz i dont wanna belong in the assoc. they call "PAL!!! AS IN PALAMUNIN!!!"hahaha..its funny but its true.some call centers are so much pickywhen it comes to grammar etc...coz honestly even your own clients have wrong grammar and dont know how to spell the words correctly that is very weired..lolz...one of the good things about working in this fab industry isthat youll be able to work with young professional people,you get a higher compensation plus an incentive if your just going to work hard for it..though its really tiring and allot of pressure everyday.,..ofcourse there is really pressure in any type of work i guess its just up to youon how you will handle those.

my first team...

this is my first team,ever since i become a team leader...cant forget this team..they made me cry..lolz....

The more you lie, the more you have to lie.

Ever told a lie which caused you to lie more? just to cover up that one little lie?yeah i did lie ..big time...!!!! guess this is how guilty i am to that person.but i guess everybody body lie,its just depends upon thescenario that they are in at that moment,but to cut that short it still bad to lie..i know..i know...i am bad cause i lie to this person,but i guess im not going to be a better person that i am right now if i didnt commit a mistake.His right,i really have to lie more to cover up the lies that i created,how stupid,if my parents would found out about this..awwwgosh...im sure my father wont forgive me about lieng since he taught me not to..but damn.....i did!!!!i am really so regret because i have hurt his feelings ..thats how stupid i am.....what you think?how about you,have u ever lie?

Am I JuSt aN OpTiOn?

So sad but sometimes I really have toaccept the things I can't accept. Tobe strong when all else fails! Wait until it's too late! To make other's believe that I am happy, but Im really not! When every night Imthinking if I can still do it ALONE and all by myself!?! Im afraid to loose the feeling I want to keep for a lifetime. The feeling of loving someone but I can't be with, Imafraid I can't stay the same. Im afraid, Im getting used to it. I was born to be loved and not just to be set aside like this! Yes, I can live alone but not in this kind of way.When Im always controlling my tears to fall at night, that's very hard to do. I know where I stand and all I cando is to be true to myself. Even tho'Im happy with my friends; its still a different feeling when Im with him!Maybe, this is just the way we want itto be, and I dont have any more choices!
BEST lesson Ive learned and the BOTTOM line was:Never let someone be your priority,while allowing yourself to be justtheir option! SAD but TRUE.

nOt UnTiL....

ive never known such emotion

that feeling of emptiness

not until that moment

when u nod your headin

response to my question,

"is this breaking up"?

ive never known such emotion

that feeling of sadness

not until that day

when i finally realize

i no longer have you in my life

ive never known such emotion

that uncomfortable feeling of pain

that hurt that seems to never go away

that pain somehow makes

it even hard to breath.not until that moment..

not until that day..not until.....

you said goodbye!