Am I JuSt aN OpTiOn?

So sad but sometimes I really have toaccept the things I can't accept. Tobe strong when all else fails! Wait until it's too late! To make other's believe that I am happy, but Im really not! When every night Imthinking if I can still do it ALONE and all by myself!?! Im afraid to loose the feeling I want to keep for a lifetime. The feeling of loving someone but I can't be with, Imafraid I can't stay the same. Im afraid, Im getting used to it. I was born to be loved and not just to be set aside like this! Yes, I can live alone but not in this kind of way.When Im always controlling my tears to fall at night, that's very hard to do. I know where I stand and all I cando is to be true to myself. Even tho'Im happy with my friends; its still a different feeling when Im with him!Maybe, this is just the way we want itto be, and I dont have any more choices!
BEST lesson Ive learned and the BOTTOM line was:Never let someone be your priority,while allowing yourself to be justtheir option! SAD but TRUE.