So Frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So Frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well seriously,it is really so frustrating how my day goes like hell last friday..guess what???yeah your right we dont have any sale last friday me and my team.i really burst out last friday on my team.i feel like i was a dragon that is unleashed from the deeper part of the world..lolz..i cussed allot which is something imnot proud of.well if my parents would hear me saying those bad words gosh...im sure i will not be allowed to go out (though im not really into bar hopping or a gimekera dudette)guess maybe no tvs..or music..grrrrrrrrrrrr..well as of now,,,guess im cooling off things on regards to my work..i dunno..maybe ive learned my lessons well before,dont want it to get defeat by this person.hayyyyyyyy...cant really think of anything else that will cool me down today,im still affected by my failure last fridayyyyyyyyyyyyyy...gosh is there anybody out there who can help me and give advice?

moving on from my love

I wish I could have seen our future
But I guess I caused so much burden
Time will soon move on and memories of you will dissapear
And I'll learn to smile again
I won't fear standing alone on that empty road
Maybe I'll find someone to love a new
This past year I can only see it in the past
Now I'm passing by the fast lane
Never looking back, but the memories will slowly fade
And my eyes dry from the tears I've cried
For so long I will try to move on
Everything I've lost, is now to regain
And I know it was our last good-bye

call center life

call center life???
allot of people think that we have an easy job...well im tellin you now....WE DONT!!!!so shut the fuck up if your freakin tellin everybody that we have a very lame job...but i know your just envy..hahahahwell anyways honestly,i didnt know that ill stay longer with this company that im employed in right now.coz i really dont know anythingabout call center jobs,whether its an outbound or inbound i dont even know the difference between outbound and inbound?lolz...all i know is i badly needed a jobcoz i dont wanna belong in the assoc. they call "PAL!!! AS IN PALAMUNIN!!!"hahaha..its funny but its true.some call centers are so much pickywhen it comes to grammar etc...coz honestly even your own clients have wrong grammar and dont know how to spell the words correctly that is very weired..lolz...one of the good things about working in this fab industry isthat youll be able to work with young professional people,you get a higher compensation plus an incentive if your just going to work hard for it..though its really tiring and allot of pressure everyday.,..ofcourse there is really pressure in any type of work i guess its just up to youon how you will handle those.

my first team...

this is my first team,ever since i become a team leader...cant forget this team..they made me cry..lolz....

The more you lie, the more you have to lie.

Ever told a lie which caused you to lie more? just to cover up that one little lie?yeah i did lie ..big time...!!!! guess this is how guilty i am to that person.but i guess everybody body lie,its just depends upon thescenario that they are in at that moment,but to cut that short it still bad to lie..i know..i know...i am bad cause i lie to this person,but i guess im not going to be a better person that i am right now if i didnt commit a mistake.His right,i really have to lie more to cover up the lies that i created,how stupid,if my parents would found out about this..awwwgosh...im sure my father wont forgive me about lieng since he taught me not to..but damn.....i did!!!!i am really so regret because i have hurt his feelings ..thats how stupid i am.....what you think?how about you,have u ever lie?

Am I JuSt aN OpTiOn?

So sad but sometimes I really have toaccept the things I can't accept. Tobe strong when all else fails! Wait until it's too late! To make other's believe that I am happy, but Im really not! When every night Imthinking if I can still do it ALONE and all by myself!?! Im afraid to loose the feeling I want to keep for a lifetime. The feeling of loving someone but I can't be with, Imafraid I can't stay the same. Im afraid, Im getting used to it. I was born to be loved and not just to be set aside like this! Yes, I can live alone but not in this kind of way.When Im always controlling my tears to fall at night, that's very hard to do. I know where I stand and all I cando is to be true to myself. Even tho'Im happy with my friends; its still a different feeling when Im with him!Maybe, this is just the way we want itto be, and I dont have any more choices!
BEST lesson Ive learned and the BOTTOM line was:Never let someone be your priority,while allowing yourself to be justtheir option! SAD but TRUE.

nOt UnTiL....

ive never known such emotion

that feeling of emptiness

not until that moment

when u nod your headin

response to my question,

"is this breaking up"?

ive never known such emotion

that feeling of sadness

not until that day

when i finally realize

i no longer have you in my life

ive never known such emotion

that uncomfortable feeling of pain

that hurt that seems to never go away

that pain somehow makes

it even hard to breath.not until that moment..

not until that day..not until.....

you said goodbye!

Until I get over you

im wondering kailan ko kaya to magagawa.. i hope soonnnnnnnnnnnn



until i get over u…

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

[Chorus]
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

[Verse 2]
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

[Bridge]
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go




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broken hearted me

are you the one whom he calls when he is bored? because you make him laugh. are you the one whom he calls when he is feeling down? because you are willing to lend an ear and be a friend? are you the one with whom he spends time with between girlfriends, before he finds the one? the one whom he keeps around for the meantime? he doesn't have to wine and dine you because you already know him and he doesn't have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. and although you would never say it, it hurts you to know that despite all your good points and all the fun you two have, he doesn't think that you're good enough to spend any real time with. sure, it's mostly your fault, because you don't have to give in to his needs. you can play hard-to-get like the rest of them do. but you both know that you probably won't be able to pull it off. maybe you're too short, or a little overweight. whatever the reason, somehow life has given you a lot of really great qualities but left out the ones that men want in a woman. so you remain the forever friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover...while he goes on searching for his goddess who will somehow be everything he ever wanted in a woman.you don't captivate him with your beauty. mainly, you blend in with the crowd. you don't want to be the center of attention and you don't turn the heads of everyone in a room. but you want to turn someone's head. you know that you want to be special to someone too.you have feelings. you have a heart. in fact, you probably have a bigger heart than any woman he has ever known because you have the front row seat to The Mess That Is His Life and you still like him anyway. you obviously see something worthwhile and redeeming in him because although he has given you nothing, and there's absolutely no reason for you to still be around...you are still there for him.this post isn't only for the meantime girls out there. i'm pretty sure that there are some whom we may call meantime guys. i guess that at some point in our lives, some of us have been that kind of person to someone. it's not easy, you will get your heart broken little by little, over and over again. but still, you keep on going, hoping that one of these days, that person will see you in a different light. but what if that time never comes? would you settle for being that person who is just there...for the meantime?

are you a meantime girl?

are you the one whom he calls when he is bored? because you make him laugh. are you the one whom he calls when he is feeling down? because you are willing to lend an ear and be a friend? are you the one with whom he spends time with between girlfriends, before he finds the one? the one whom he keeps around for the meantime? he doesn't have to wine and dine you because you already know him and he doesn't have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. and although you would never say it, it hurts you to know that despite all your good points and all the fun you two have, he doesn't think that you're good enough to spend any real time with. sure, it's mostly your fault, because you don't have to give in to his needs. you can play hard-to-get like the rest of them do. but you both know that you probably won't be able to pull it off. maybe you're too short, or a little overweight. whatever the reason, somehow life has given you a lot of really great qualities but left out the ones that men want in a woman. so you remain the forever friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover...while he goes on searching for his goddess who will somehow be everything he ever wanted in a woman.you don't captivate him with your beauty. mainly, you blend in with the crowd. you don't want to be the center of attention and you don't turn the heads of everyone in a room. but you want to turn someone's head. you know that you want to be special to someone too.you have feelings. you have a heart. in fact, you probably have a bigger heart than any woman he has ever known because you have the front row seat to The Mess That Is His Life and you still like him anyway. you obviously see something worthwhile and redeeming in him because although he has given you nothing, and there's absolutely no reason for you to still be around...you are still there for him.this post isn't only for the meantime girls out there. i'm pretty sure that there are some whom we may call meantime guys. i guess that at some point in our lives, some of us have been that kind of person to someone. it's not easy, you will get your heart broken little by little, over and over again. but still, you keep on going, hoping that one of these days, that person will see you in a different light. but what if that time never comes? would you settle for being that person who is just there...for the meantime?

Here's for the LONELY

How could you be so far when you're so near?
But how will you get near when you can’t master the fear?
How will you say "No", when your goal is to say "Yes"?
But will you say, "Yes" if it's not for the best?
How will you stop when you hate ending this?
But is there a need to end it if you’ve got everything to risk?

How will you go on if one false move could end it all?
But will you think about the end if you’ve reached your goal?
How will you give in if you can’t trust?
But why you should trust if you couldn’t see through the dust?
How will you let go, if you all want is to hold on,
But why must you hold on if you’ve got no reason?


How will you fall in love without a single stumble?
But is there a need to stumble when all you have to do is fall?
How will you fall in love when you’re afraid to try?
But why you should try if you know that you’ll just cry?
How will I say "I love you" when I can’t find any reason,
But will reasons be important if to you my heart
belongs???

I Can Tell

The kisses that you used to give,
Are the sweet sweet kisses I will miss,
You don't love me anymore and I can tell..


Another boy has made you change,
When I'm around you're acting strange,
You don't love me anymore,
and I can tell..


Maybe you can't bring yourself to tell me about him,
After thinking about the love we used to share,
when you hold me, I know your're thinking of him..
No you don't love me anymore,
I can tell,
And I can tell..

Perfection In My Eyes

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together,to never be apart.
No one else in the world can even compare,
You're perfect & so is this love that we share.
We have so much more thanI ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.
I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.In your eyes I see our present,
our future and past,By the way you look at meI know we will last.
I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.
I thought love was just a mirage of the mind, It's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find.
But the day I met you, I began to see,
That love is real, and exists in me.